Im just going in circles, i get better then one small thing happens and i lose it again. Im so weak, so fragile! I just want to go to sleep all day, all night...and get him to wake me up when he wants me, and when this is all over...and if its always going to b this way, i dont want to wake up at all. Life shouldnt b such a struggle, especially at this age. Ive tried everything a million times...its hopeless!