yeah,i'd rather my fucking father used condom that day...jerk my life is total waste of time,i don't have anyone in my life to live for,except my mother. I don't get any joy from life and more important i don't bring any joy to others,i'am just burden to everyone. I am still fucking student and don't have a job,and still depend on others,and i am 26. I don't even know how it is being happy,and have a normal life,but i am trying to imagine it hearing people around me talking about it. Saddest thing is i know i never will be happy,cause i just can't change anything,i can't even get a gf though many of them want to be with me,i am completely social retard,i don't know how to act around people,i am afraid to change anything so i can get a piece of happines for myself. I rather stay the way i am,alone in the dark,and i hate everyone who try to bring some light in my life...I just can't be like others and i know i will never be a normal person,and i know i will never find a kind of human being i belong,so how can i live alone in thise world,how can i survive as a single unit,is it actually posible?