If you cant open up to anyone, what good is therapy supposed to do? I spend most of every session just staring at the wall, not able to say anything. Thoughts cross my mind but I cant say them aloud because Im terrified that someone will know how pathetic I really am. So I talk rarely and lie when I do. Ive had people tell me that therapy is not uncomfortable or embarressing, and I will feel better just talking to someone and making progress... lies! Ive been going for months now and nothing changes. I feel worse now then when I started, because my problems are the same and they feel more hopeless than ever. Im terrified to even mention the fact that Ive been having suicidal urges, Ill probably get thrown in a mental hospital or something. Has ANYONE here had any success after going to therapy? Does it make any difference at all? Am I doing something wrong here? Really this is just a reflection of all my larger problems... I cant open up to anyone, I have no confidence in myself, I dont trust anyone... but how am I supposed to be open with someone to get help when part of my problem is being open with other people? What good does therapy do in that situation? The whole thing feels like a fucking sham and a waste.