Looking at it realistically: we are "wired" to preserve our own lives, to survive at all costs. For someone to seriously be considering killing themselves, it goes against the very nature of mankind... in fact, goes against the nature of all living things. If I have reached this point, it isn't for some small, insignificant reason. Clearly there is something very flawed in my mind or body that has pushed me to this point -- with this in mind, what is the use in resisting it? Why am I even trying? I am receiving a very clear signal and it is telling me that life isn't worth it. Every day it gets stronger. Whatever it is that makes other people's lives worthwhile, i don't have it and every fiber of my being is telling me that I won't find it. I feel the pressure building up and eventually it needs to be released... won't be long now.