Hello the world. Im in a situation with no way out beside living in a tent in the middle of the winter. I'm 36 years old and has been in a decline for over two years now. This is the end. Social phobia makes it hard for me to call anyone, and I cannot live here anyone. My plan was to live in the tent. Spent alot of money buying equipment. New tent, backpack, clothes and more, but I will miserably fail so I wont even try it. Only thing I find sad that it will be my mother that will find me in her own bathroom. Maybe I can put a note for her to see so she will not enter. Its a selfish thing to do yes, but she will be very happy that Im gone. We are not talking anymore, and she wants me out as soon as possible, and that's not something I say to justify it. She really wants me to leave, and I have been wanting to leave for two years now, and have been self medicating with alcohol to get by. Will have to take the bus to get to the shop wich sells < Mod Edit Hazel: Method >, and I hate the bus, but I will make it.