CG -
I felt very much the same as you're expressing just 2 days ago. I have a plan, and have been so damned weary of life lately.
Someone told me, "you're merging with your emotions...try distancing a bit and looking at yourself as you would your child (if I had one), with warmth, kindness and unconditional acceptance". It seemed to help.
Also, live chat might help...it's the isolation that seems to make it so much worse (even though MY brain tells me it doesn't matter either way).
Don't do it today. You can always do it later. That's what I tell myself on the bleakest of days and it helps to get me through.
-DylanS