I posted in the Depression forums recently but I feel here is a more apt place to post the continuation of my story so to speak. I'm 17 with Severe Clinical Depression (possibly type II bipolar still being looked into) and a Social Anxiety Disorder. My depression has only lasted a small amount of time in comparison to most people here (diagnosed in january) but seems like forever. After trying numerous medications and relatively high doses my GP has failed to provide any sort of imporvement to my condition. Not sure about in other places but where I am in the UK it takes months in between to get an appointment with my therapist and the CBT waiting list is very long. Since January I went from an A* grade student across the board down to B's and C's in the end after spending Jan-May when exams started off school. September I entered college but the combination of the depression and S.A caused my attendance to drop so low I've been kicked out. This is a catalist I guess to my ongoing Suicidal thoughts which have been constant for months. Now i'm socially isolated and dont leave the house I have alot of time to think about suicide, all day every day. Plus i've been recently told to withdraw from all my meds by the therapist as they are not helping. Now because of the lack of drowsy inducing tablets I find it impossible to sleep which means i'm awake, thinking, searching the internet for suicide,suicide plans, suicide notes, suicide methods. My GP knows i've thought about it but now I want to tell him exactly how bad its become, sorry for the wall of text .