The end is near for me. I have zero hope. Not only for myself but for the future of this planet. I don't know what is true or false about whats going on in the world, or my spiritual beliefs. One things obvious though, we are heading for a horrible future, it may be like 1984/ brave new world. People will be slaves and cattle. There will be no divine intervention to help us, the only intervention is by the demons/djini/interdimentionals. There is no point in waiting. I can't be fixed. If the whole world evolved to a higher point in 2012. I still wouldn't be up to the level of other people. I would still be a failure. I'll never be happy on this world. It all just seems so lame to me. What is life? We eat crap, kill things, we sleep around, go about our daily lives in and out the same fucking thing over and over. People fight, people die, people go in circles over who is right and wrong. People drive around, people buy people consume. People live in and out of the same places for long periods of time. I hate this fucking shit hole town I live in. Gah! such a lame life, with no meaning.