Today I spent at the police station, accused of actual bodily harm. accused by the woman I was sure I'd spend my life with. The charge doesn't just mean a criminal record, if they find in her favour I lose my job, my house, my car, everthing. On top of losing her. I spent the day in a cold cell, not working out excuses, the truth is I didn't hit her, I didn't intentionally harm her, and when she came at me I tried to just push her away from me and my house because I didn't want to fight. I found myself writing letters in my head today. To everyone who's ever impacted my life. To say sorry, to say thank you, to say goodbye. This coming Sunday would be my 27th birthday. I dont have one single thing left that makes me want to see it. I'm sending the letters marked do not open until 5/12/2010. By then it will be too late. I'm sorry, all I seem to do is dump on people and now on the people of this forum too. Please dont feel you need to reply. I just needed to say it to one person.