everything is going wrong. all of my friends have backstabbed me and we are no longer friends. my dad is an alcoholic and my mom died last year. my sister is off to college and she's not coming back. i was raped by my uncle not too long ago. i have no dignity left. i have no one to turn to. i've decided to give up. i have no one to stay here for. i'm gonig to think this over one last time and i'll be gone by next week.