I just cant do it n e more...he has taken everyting away from me. i am so much better than him, better than this...but i just cant break the habbit. i hate who he is being right now and at the moment its hard to believe that he ever really was who he said he was. I just want to die so he can feel the pain that i feel inside. i hope he feels bad!!! i hope he knows what its like to have a promise broken!!! and i hope he learns from it so that he never acts this way again. i want to be selfish and do something for myself for once. i wish i never met him, i wish i was never born with such an addictive personality. i dont want him and i dont want a life without him! IM GONE!