Good bye. Can't take no more.

[depressedGirl]

Hey there. I want you to know that I have reached the end. I am fed up with epilespy. I have just had another fit. I wish I were dead. I have nothing to say to life anymore. I have decided to commit suicide. You can believe me or not. You won't hear from me anymore. I have <mod edit-gentlelady-methods> ready. Well goodbye. Its been nice talking to you but I lack the will to continue living. Goodbye...

 

[andyc68]

come on hun, please dont do this.
i can understand that living with epilepsy isnt easy but there are many people who do, there must be groups and such to help you.

a good friend of mine on here ( crookxshanks ) suffers as well, maybe talking her may help, i dunno.

there has to be another way, if your meds are not helping then get them changed.

dont give up

 

[gentlelady]

i am sorry you are struggling so much with your epilepsy, Are there any treatments you have not tried that may be more effective than what you are currently doing? Explore all options available to you. Please stay safe. :hug:

 

[ame solitaire]

Dont give up yet.x

 

[~Claire]

Living with an illness like epilepsy must be hard, but like the others have said, there must be alternative treatments/medication & support groups available to you :hug:.

Is anything else going on that is making you feel like this?

 

[depressedGirl]

I can't bear it any longer. I wish I was dead. I have nothing to live for. I have decided to up my dosage myself and I hope I die... And even if there is a God I deserve Hell anyway. I am worthless, evil and stupid. I keep snapping at my little Brother... At least if I die I will be with my Nephew. My only concern is leaving my Niece, Sara who is 4 years old.

 

[ame solitaire]

Im glad you came back.
I snap at my kids-its part of being in pain I think.Im not sure if I believe in hell-but Im sure you dont deserve to be there.x

 

[~Claire]

Hun,

Please don't change your dosage, the consequences could potentially be horrendous & by that I don't mean death.

You said you have nothing to live for, but what about your brother & niece? I'm sure they would miss having you about & we would too :hug:.

 

[Longshot]

There's something right there, something to live for. Your niece.
And you're not an evil person for just snapping at your little brother. All siblings treat each other badly at times.
You have all the world's reasons to live. Things will shape up for you. If you really have hit rock bottom, then at least it can't get worse. And you can live with epilepsy. I have a cousin that does. It's not always easy, but he has made a normal life for himself. I know you can too, you just need the courage.
Think of it this way: We all want you to live. If you live, you show us that we can to. You can give us hope by being strong. And by being strong and giving us hope, you give yourself hope.

 

[depressedGirl]

I think I am crazy. I snap at everyone and then go in my room and burst into tears. Everythings an effort and I don't feel like doing anything anymore. I used to take my Brother to the park but I have no energy. I have lost taste in all my hobbies...

 

[~Claire]

:hug:

Everything you describe is very common with depression hun. Have you spoke to your GP about how you are feeling?

 

[pit]

you know, back when I had severe asthma, I felt the same way. I even tried to end it a few times. But I eventually overcame the attacks and am still around. I'm still alive. And if you give your disease a little patience and a new outlook, it'll do you some good too.

 

[depressedGirl]

I wish there was a way to delete this thread as I have now calmed down. Please forgive me for posting this stupid thread.

 

[~Claire]

:hug: Della,

Maybe just having the chance to say what's going through your head has lessened your anxiety.

We are always here for you :hug:

Take care, Claire xx

 

[shazzer]

I'm glad your feeling a little better its good to get things off your chest. please take care and stay safe pm me if you need to :hug: