Hi I'm a 22 year old male from Toronto. 3 weeks ago I attempted to kill myself , I was rudely interupted by the cops, who proceeded to beat the shit out of me. I have zero recollection of the following 24 hours. I woke up strapped to a hospital bed. This wasn't the first time I felt suicidal. Now 3 weeks later these urges are back and stronger then ever. I know this will sound pathetic and I never thought this would bring me to this point, or maybe it's the straw that broke the camels back... Me and my gf of a year and a half broke up 3.5 weeks ago and have been working on things. Tonight it all went to hell and I realized I'm the biggest piece of shit ever. Oh btw there are many other underlying issues again as I said this is the straw. I have no desire to live. I don't care anymore. Everyday gets harder. Every morning is more difficult to wake up. I am very tempted to do it now. But she is her. And will stop me. I will cut myself tonight. I know that much. Every smile I put on is fake. No one understands. They all think you are crazy. Maybe I am. Maybe I'm not right. Of course I'm not. I guess I'm here just to tell the world goodbye. I probly won't write a note. I probly won't tell any one. So good bye. And thank you for reading.