I am not going to kill myself. What I am here to say is thank you. I've been here for pretty much my entire adulthood, and during that time I met a lot of users. Sadly, all but one are gone from this world now. I know I don't post much on here, but I can assure you my PMs are filled with thank you's, or other words of gratitude. My only regret is that I couldn't help them all, I know their stories, and what they went through. A couple of them had kids, some were single mothers, some were abused in someway, others just needed a second chance. I was whatever they needed. I can't do it anymore. This place, helped saved my life many years ago...yet I feel like I couldn't do anything at the end. I can't save everyone, I can't help everyone. I lived in Japan for almost all my adulthood, I scaled Mt. Fuji on my birthday, I scored a dream job. I had become and done everything I ever wanted. Yet this place, I would always come back here at the right moments, or maybe the worst...and find someone to help. I can't do it anymore. The only person who is left from the people I met here, is also the person I care about the most. The single living proof that I did some good in this world, and she's the only one who knows. I told a lot of users here about myself, and yet they're all gone now. I'll keep praying for you guys here, and maybe I will come back if I see someone who really needs a hand. I just honestly can't do it anymore, I need to move on too...I need to let go. Thank you everyone who were there (you know who you are), my only regret is I didn't post as much, there are still a lot of people who need a hand, so help them. Remember that life is really beautiful, I know it looks bleek and dark, but there's always a light. I promise all of you that. You guys will be fine, and I promise I'll pray for the people who need help. Rise like a phoenix.