I'm Vania. Beautiful, talented and full of self-loathing and doubt. Deceptive, energetic, usually hopeful and calm. Sometimes people wonder why I do dangerous things. They don't know that I contain apathy for the outcome. I'm taller than you; 6'4'' My height is pretty important to me -- it's the first detail noticed when I walk anywhere. People bombard me with stupid questions. The hated is "Have you always been so large?" Yes, my mother had a gaping hole for a vagina. Am I allowed to say vagina? Sorry. End.