I know things can get sad on this site so I am posting a success story. I had a rough night last night, I couldn't sleep because I was feeling really crappy about myself and really wanted to die. I had been lying to my therapist for the last 3 sessions about how things were going but after last night I decided to tell him the truth. I told him everything and after I had finished talking he made several suggestions of strategies we can try. On top of it all he was able to get me an appointment for Tuesday so I won't have to wait too long. I am feeling like there might be hope for me.