Every time you think things are going to go wright what happens? Life throws a cruve ball your way and every thing that you have worked so hard for seems like for nothing. Well that is what happend today. I got home from an appointment to find a letter waiting for me. I no longer have medicade because the great state of Ohio thinks that having every one on HMO's is a solution to there problems. Not carring if or who it affects. Well I am one of the people that it has affected I am loosing my doctor my threapist my home health aid who I might add I have had for almost two years. I am for sure going to get approvel now for the gastric by pass! But at this cost of loosing some one and something that I have found to be a great support to me, is it worth it? I dont no as I sit here and cry I keep asking myself why? Why me every time things seem like they are going wright for I am knocked back even further then when I started my journey down this road to get help. I have built great relashionship with my threapist and I now trust him but now I am back at square one with him. I just dont no what to do. So I set myself back today I benged all day and now I feel like shit for doing it.