I wrote a list today on reasons to commit suicide and reasons to live. The first one, I came up with 45 reasons, the second one, I only came up with two. I'm not an overly emotional person and I am pretty damn realistic when it comes to life (people call me the anchor of reality). Because of my view points, I don't really see any reason why I should NOT do it. And I probably will, just as soon as I figure out a way to make it not look like suicide. It will be bad enough for my parents when I'm dead, I don't want them to know that my death was not an accident. I would name the reasons, but you would really have to be in my shoes to understand them. Anyway, other than physical pain, is there a good reason just to say fuck it?