i havent had a good day in months but everytime i enjoy a movie, song, televsion show our have a relaxing few hours, within moments it hits me how fucked up i am, and how everything is not allright! its like that feeling when u wake up in the morning and for a second u think ur allright but like a ton of bricks u realize how fucked u r! i thought i woud be getting better by now but my depression is only getting worse. im taking more and more pills 2 try and numb my pain. im fucked! im so fucked!