Have finally decided to do it. Will leave permanently in a couple of days time. Yes xmas eve, perfect time since I am gonna be on my own. With no money, no job, no career prospects, no home in less than a month, no family around, I cannot carry on living. It will be painful but at least I will not have to suffer anymore after that. Because life was just an unbearable pain to me. Some people have it good, some don't. Shattered dreams, destroyed career prospects, no source of income, no job offers made after countless job interviews attended (even a few days ago...), absolutely nothing to live for. Wishing all the best to most of you. Desert_Star: Thank you for your support. I hope you will find your desert soon without feeling guilty for leaving people behind. Go back there while you can to fullfil your happiness. Missiontohell: Thank you so much for your support. I hope you will find happiness soon because you are entitled to it. You are a great friend. Thank you mon cheri. Wildcherry: Thank you very much indeed for your support, especially when a nasty forum member attacked me with his nonsense on one of my threads. I hope you will get what you are looking for. Wishing you lots of happiness. Snowraven: Thank you for your kind words, you are a lovely gentle person. Wishing you lots of happiness my dear friend. Tam: It was nice to share passion for food with a like minded person. Wishing you well and lots of happiness. Dave (Aussie guy met in chat): thank you for your amazing kindess and support. You are a great guy. Wishing you plenty of happiness. If I forgot any name among my friends, sorry about that, I am just rushing through this one. Wishing you good health and prosperity. I may be available until tomorrow, the last day. Then bye bye for good. Happy holidays to you all, stay warm and try to be happy.