Goodbye Blue Sky

Discussion in 'Welcome' started by drnishverma, Apr 7, 2008.

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  1. drnishverma

    drnishverma New Member


    I am an online gambling (sports) addict but like many others am in a constant state of denial. Therefore, I first burned up all my cash, then borrowed heavily from friends on some pretext and lost that too.

    Theres another twist to this---I live in India now and gambled away all the pounds I had earned in the UK. So, now I am overdrawn on my UK account, my credit card is maxed out and I owe lots of people lots of cash. Theres no way in hell I can repay anyone,since I now earn peanuts in rupees so I'm just gonna bum out.

    This has not been an easy decision for me. I have suffered for a year now and have lain awake many nights knowing that I have screwed up the beautiful life I was granted. I have betrayed my family, my friends and myself.

    I often find myself crying when alone and thinking about what might have been. I guess I wont be crying much longer. Hello....and goodbye

    BOLIAO Guest

    I kinda understand your dilemna. I earned a few hundred thousand a year for a period of two over years and ignorantly didnt know the value of money. Lived life lavishly and spent all my money on material things without bothering to save as I thought my income would last forever. Well, it stopped after two years and I was back as an ordinary manager and earned a normal manager's pay. Since then, I couldn't understand why I continue working. Tasted royal jelly and couldn't find satisfaction in eating sugar anymore. and there was no way I could earn that kind of income again, given circumstances. It's like mariah carey's song title " I had it all but I let it slip away'. Blew it only to realize it when it's all gone. Life's lesson is so painful but we will learn if we can get out alive.
  3. Lead Savior

    Lead Savior Well-Known Member

    Welcome to the forum

    Gambling addiction is not at all easy to overcome, but I am confident that you can do it

    Perhaps you should tell the people you owe money (if theyre close, i.e. relatives and friends) about your problem, show them that youre trying to change and maybe they will be lenient with you?
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    welcome to the forum :welcome:

    Have you see a specialist about your gambling addiction?
  5. Pentacle

    Pentacle Well-Known Member

    The first step to a cure is admitting you have the problem in the first place. :yes:

    Welcome to the forum. Have faith in yourself and you'll shine x
  6. nagisa

    nagisa Staff Alumni

    Welcome to SF :hug:
  7. danni

    danni Chat Buddy

    welcome :hug:
  8. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    :welcome: to SF. You need to be honest with your friends. They may not react well, but it is the only way to be honest with yourself too.
  9. *dilligaf*

    *dilligaf* Staff Alumni

    Welcome to the forum
  10. suicider628

    suicider628 Well-Known Member

    welcome. :biggrin:
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