I just wanna hurt him so bloody bad sometimes. I can't I let him rule me like that all the..time!!! Today I went, with my career n life class, to a college and university diversity ( I dunno how its called, its career and program choices anyhow). Well once there I did a lot, I mean 2 bloody hours, to find the right college for me. I want to get a bachelors degree in Arts Visual Communications and my info was to go to Medicine Hat College. Well I come home and present this to my jerk of a father and he says. <yea whatever, you’re going to UVA anyways (uva is University Alberta in Edmonton)> and we argued for hours tonight. I’m so freaking pissed off after him, for once in my life I wanted to be able to decide. Decide for something important. But no, big old fat grouchy piss ass father has to control me constantly like a puppet. I hate this bloody hell! So after that I went to my room ( while that’s like now, ) and cut myself right under the hand. I cut as deep as I can bear. And now the keyboard is basically red everywhere. (how did I type?, well I ignored the pain just long enough ( still am) to send this goodbye message cause I’m gonna end this bloody fucking nightmare here now. Gonna cut out my right hands artery. Bye!