I wasn't able to stay here to long. I really wish I was stronger, able to get my life back on track. But that's not how it is. I might wait untill I'm through with my exam on friday, I don't know. Why is it so hard? I thought I was getting better, but I've never been worse. My former bestfriend promised to take me to a show if I managed to survive another year from last January, now he is telling me that I'm not worth it ... Like I didn't now that well enough. I guess it did help me see that I'm doing the right thing, that it won't be a wasted life. Thank you for reading this. I needed to get it out of my system, be sure that I have made the right choice. I know I have. I hate to just exist, and not be able to really live. Death is the best solution for me now. Take care, all of you!