Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by lost_child, Jul 12, 2009.

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  1. lost_child

    lost_child Well-Known Member

    Did you notice that I was alone
    and heading towards the unknown.
    I tried to call you
    but your were gone.

    Did you notice that i never cried
    for those tears before were denied.
    i wanted to move on and heal
    the pain I couldn't conceal.

    Did you notice that the calls had stopped
    my life fallen, i had long since dropped.
    If you had cared, you would have known
    but to everyone, i was just an unknown.

    Did you notice the pain in eyes
    holding in all those lies.
    I wanted to hold your hand
    but i was just a grain of sand.

    Did you notice that i was losing
    everything was so confusing
    nobody was there
    I was in despair.

    Did you notice that I wasn't whole
    my life taken, that's what they stole.
    you couldn't reach me
    never heard my plea.

    Did you notice that I was gone
    that for someone time i'd been withdrawn
    that i tried to reach out
    I just couldn't shout.

    Did you notice days had passed
    and the other day was my last.
    that you hadn't heard my voice
    and that I had no choice.

    Would you have noticed, if I cried
    and told you I tried.
    I could have found that friend
    someone to help me mend.

    Would you have held me
    if I wasn't so big
    would you have listened
    if I told you all.

    You couldn't be there,
    you didn't understand
    the confusion that I hold
    you just didn't care.

    You couldn't be there,
    could you,
    you couldn't just help me
    a child, inside trapped.

    You just wouldn't listen,
    I was different.,
    I wasn't the same as you,
    I didn't make friends.

    I couldn't accept love,
    I didn't know care.
    so to you, you left me on my own.
    and now, i'm just unknown.

    you would have noticed if you just cared
    if you could have said you'd be there,
    but you walked away when i need you most
    now here, I am just a ghost.

    Your reading this, and i'm not here
    you couldn't help me when I was alive,
    I don't expect you to ask why,
    I tried, but I choose to die.

    I choose death over life.
    life is hell
    lonelyless is a killer
    the past is torture.

    Now I've choosen......

    Neices & nephew.

    Loved you from the day you were born, from the moment your heart beat i loved you, you were my life, i tried everyday I looked at your face, i looked at you picture, i saw your smile, i remembered your laugh. I loved you so much it hurt to see you ask, to hear you say "are you ok", yes was the reply, little lifes, little hearts I never wanted to hurt. Your mum, your dad will keep you safe, I'm sorry I'm not around to be there where times get tough, or to see you pass your exams, your first day at work, get married, have your own children. I love you everyday, everyday the loves does grow stronger and I hope you never look at me and say what could have been, but be strong, and carryon,.

    love you always xxxxxxxxxx
  2. lost_child

    lost_child Well-Known Member

    tried everything. Mastt team. samaritans, chat, friend, family, there is nobody. everyone says talk, but when there is nobody you know then what? I WILL die 2nite.

    I will die.
  3. lost_child

    lost_child Well-Known Member

    pillls was always the way, failed 2 many times. medhway bridge will work, i tried everything,everyone to speak. i tried. shit i tried more then ever before.
  4. Bambi

    Bambi Well-Known Member

    oh please don't do anything to hurt yourself. You are in lots of pain I can tell, can you call a hotline? Someone? Please go to the local hospital and get help. You are worth it you really are and I don't want to see anything bad happen to you at all.
    Are you in therapy? If so call them, please.
    There is hope.
    Talk some more so we can help and see what options there may be for you.
  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Jody :hug:

    Please let us know if you are ok. Sorry I couldn't be more helpful in chat last night.
    I know you say you've tried everything..but do you think there may be just a little chance of still finding something that will help you? I think so :yes:
    Keep fighting, we're here fighting with you :)
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