today was feeling pretty ok about my looks, nothing special. then i sit down and talk to my bitchy sister and she says "one day i will fix ur looks. my friend said that if u just fixed urself u would look really beautiful" what the fuck is that?! everyday, 24/7, all im doing is trying to look better. i surf on the internet for ways to look better, i spend all my money on things to make me look better, i eat certain things to look better, i dont eat certain things to look better, i exercise to look better, i do EVERYTHING i fucking can to look better. but she says "if i JUST fixed myself". i was almost getting over this thing. i started to believe i was actually not so ugly. but i was fooling myself the whole time. i will never forget it. omg. im really gonna cry over this. one little sentence fucked up my whole view of myself.