Right, searching everywhere for someone to talk to, so will just do it here because can't find anyone online. I'm about to become 22, very soon. For the past 10 days I have been well destracted, thus not had time to be depressed. It is creeping in now as I get closer to that day. The problem is simple. I'm a virgin. As a student, people's sex lives and what they've been up to is in the conversations way too much. It is constantly triggering. Why am I the only one I know like this, why am I the odd one out, why doesn't anyone want me, what is wrong with me, what is the point anymore because there must be something wrong with who I am, I am too inadequate to want to live. It is effecting every aspect of my life, it's killing my health and my education. I do not want the usual, your time will come, there is someone for everyone, be patient, dont look for it, love yourself, i've had all this patronising shit for 3 years now. The truth is you have to be out there, that is what I believed, that is what I still believe, in my chase to be out there I didnt manage to make it, slotted back into a loser comfort zone, as a result I do not meet people, therefore there is no opportunity of coming across anyone. I cant change my circumstances right now, I am stuck in this life style, I'm not going to join clubs or anything because I'm not going alone and I dont want to do that in my current lack of motivation and living circumstances. All I can do in this life, until I can move somewhere near and start again with new adventure is just sit here feeling sorry for myself, in the hope that one day, the friends I have will lead me to meeting someone. I can't be arsed to wait anymore, its killing me and as soon as I am alone I sink into a dark place of self doubt, self pity and low self esteem, none of this is that evident when I am around people. Good luck to anyone who wants to try and work with that without repeating what wont work.