Im still here, I called my best friend, had him take all my guns. Only guns I see now are the ones I work on under supervision. And Im not going to USPSA this weekend either.....so Im trying. Today, I was feeling ok. But then I got a call from my ex, my love. Said to meet me in town, so I dropped everything I was doing to go see her hoping maybe she had changed her mind. I get there, she was being nice...she got in my truck and went for a drive. She said we had to go pay her phone bill. We get there, I sit over by the door and watch TV, then they call me over and have me sign something...wierd, but I dont care, I was just so happy to be with her. Then he tells me what happened....her and I just split our contracts. Means when she calls, my name wont show up anymore, shes done with me....I just wanted to die there. We get back to my truck, a tear runs down my cheek, and she demanded I take her home. I wanted to wreck into the nearest thing I saw. But my truck is imortal. I drop her off at her car..... Im rambling...Im sad, I miss her, she was my life.... I dont know.