After talking about me being very depressed and wanting to commit suicide to my dad about a week ago, he's decided I should seek help and pay a visit to my phsycologist next week.
I'm pretty nervous about it. Right now, I'm in a relatively good mood. I'd just feel embarrased to tell him what makes me feel suicidal, even I sometimes don't know, I sometimes don't have a concrete solid reason/s for killing myself.
I'd feel ashamed and embarrased to tell him.
I guess I feel embarrased because I'm the only one in my entire family and everyone I know to see a phychologist. :shy:
All of my parent's friend's children and my relatives and other kids I know are all so happy and carefree, never having the slightest inkling of suicide, at least they never ever give me that impression. They could be hiding it but I doubt it, they are just all all around better than me. Wait, I think thats one reason I want to die, I feel or am inferior to all those around me...
I had visited him a couple of times late last year but it didn't do anything.
Wish me luck you guys...please? :nerves:
I'm pretty nervous about it. Right now, I'm in a relatively good mood. I'd just feel embarrased to tell him what makes me feel suicidal, even I sometimes don't know, I sometimes don't have a concrete solid reason/s for killing myself.
I'd feel ashamed and embarrased to tell him.
I guess I feel embarrased because I'm the only one in my entire family and everyone I know to see a phychologist. :shy:
All of my parent's friend's children and my relatives and other kids I know are all so happy and carefree, never having the slightest inkling of suicide, at least they never ever give me that impression. They could be hiding it but I doubt it, they are just all all around better than me. Wait, I think thats one reason I want to die, I feel or am inferior to all those around me...
I had visited him a couple of times late last year but it didn't do anything.
Wish me luck you guys...please? :nerves: