I've been having some memories of things that happened when I was younger and I don't know how to feel. Its almost a numb feeling like I'm seeing someone else in my memories. I'm not sure how to feel...my family kind of laughs off what happened to me since it wasn't "real" abuse and its always made me feel confused as to what happened. I have these reoccuring memory of the person who did this to me, my cousin, having a blanket in the car and whenever my mother would go into the store he would make me touch his "Max" (as he called it) until he was gratified and I just felt dirty. He would he did that off and on for 4 years. When we were at home he would made me do it otherwise he wouldn't give me any presents (he had started giving me gifts in exchange) and I would just go along with it. I also have memories of him grabbing my feet and using those to get off in a way I would rather not remember anymore. Was I abused? I was 6-9 years old when this happened. He was an adult.