I get very frustrated that there is no-one I can open up to properly, so it gets bottled up untill I explode. To me this is a symptom of my mental state, not a relection of who I am. Just like a runny nose is the symptom of a cold, it can't be helped, though I do try honestly. Anyway, my g/f believes that the best thing for me to 'get over' my depression would be for me to go away and live on my own, get a new job, find a new set of friends, get a new set of interests and build a new life for myself away from her and my son, that would prove that I was capable of coming back and having a family life with her. (Just for the record, I absolutely dread living on my own, not just because of the lonliness, but the guilt of abandoning my boy as well) Personally i think not getting shouted at when I'm trying to express my feelings when I've been asked to do exactly that would be better, but what do I know? So my stuff is in bin bags in the back of the car whilst i emabark on what I'm calling the 'Snap Out Of It Adventure' Fan-fucking-tastic. P.S. While I'm away I need to learn how to bury my feelings and put on a happy face for other people so as not to ruin their day with my 'moods' Just one of the many marvelous nuggets of advice I recieve to help me function as a 'normal' person.