Hello im dirge. Im poor, ive had suicidal thoughts since I was 12, im now 18. Ive went to different mental health and couseling, on and off since I was 13. My beliefs are nihilistic naturalism, strong atheism I think. I feel like I need something to make me happy, but its impossible to get. I feel like every thing is too complicated and nothing is worth it. Humans are porbably the worst animals imo . I hope a meteor hits this planet or the sun destroys it. Life isnt worth living to me everything is pointless, its impossibl to have a point anyways. Reality sucks, I wish i could live in a fantasy world. I will probably kill my self soon because ive droped out of school, I have always had bad grades. I dont have friends , dont really care tho. Never kissed a girl, doesnt really matter tho. Every thing in life is temporary and nothing matters.