Hi you all, and thank you for letting me in your wonderful community. I'm known as Maw. I'm something of an equivalent to a high school student in the States(I guess) and I'm from this cold and dark place called Finland(yes, the funny country that was on Conan O'Brien). I found this site when I was looking for a community where people deal with at least some of the things I deal with. I'm mostly known to people as a musician, and I've been making music for a while now(My last.fm profile, since for some reason some people actually listen to my music o.o ). On the site's main topic though, I've been suffering from depression, various mental disorders and suicidal thoughts for about six months or so... Help I have sought, but to no avail. I'm simply such a terrible person that I don't deserve help from all the wonderful people around me, who do not even know me that well. Sounds like a cliche and everything, but it's scary when an angsty movie cliche becomes real life. Excuse me for any linguistical incosistencies and whatnot, it's like 2 a.m. and I'm so tired. I just want to sleep and not wake up. Then again I don't even deserve the comfort... But I'm just rambling on about myself, I'm sorry.