I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like something is lost. I don't know what it is. I think I lost it a long time ago. I think I loved it. I think I failed to protect it. I don't want to live any more. There's nothing left. My whole world is gone. Everything is empty. I can't move on or forget. It would be a lie and a betrayal. I have to die. I feel like I'm going insane. My thoughts have no structure. I can't be coherent. I'm focused on only one thing, yet it's so complex. All I can feel is grief. I don't want anything else. Please help me. Please let me die.