Hey honey,
You do deserve care and kindness, don't let yourself believe otherwise! You matter a great deal hon, I know I for one would be lost without you!
I know you must be petrified, I wish there was something I could do, something I could say, to take that way a little bit, to ease the fear, but I can't. What I can do is be right here for you, always. Tomorrow is going to be hard sweetie, but I know you have the strength to do this. You have SUCH a clear inner strength, even though I know you don't see that within yourself. It is understandable that you feel the way you feel, that you just want to give up, and I totally get where you are coming from, but you need to keep fighting hon. Not just for you, but for your children, for me, for the people who care. And in turn, we will be here to support you every step of the way.
Please don't allow yourself to get stressed out too much with the whole life insurance problem hon. You have enough going on right now, without worrying about something that you can't change. Have you looked online at different insurance places? I really think that at the moment you need to focus on YOU and your health, not necessarily the practical side of things right now.
You HAVE dignity. My goodness, you are one of the most compassionate, dignified, caring, funny, lovely people I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I feel honoured that I am lucky enough to count you as a friend. Everyone struggles, everyone hurts, that does not mean you are weak or undignified in any shape or form. I know that's hard to believe, but you just have to trust me on this one.
Sending loadsa love and big huge hugs right now
Meee xxxxxx