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I'm the most stupidest existance on this planet. I hate myself. I'm pathetic.
I'm going to get kicked out of school.
My mum is ashamed of me because of my behaviour yesterday at school.
I mean, all that happened was I didn't go to any lessons due to a headache from hell. I may have been a tad disruptive and rude but hello, I should've been sent home! Not ignored and being spoken to like a piece of crap!
My sister hates me and is now officially ignoring me. When she speaks to me, it's usually something offensive.
I'm hated by every member of my family.
Me and my brother had an arguement a few days ago, he said that I have an eating disorder, I said I don't, he said I match the description of eating disorders too well, so I took an online test (we all know how they are like, lying piece of craps), and I scored high, my brother then said it's proof I have an eating disorder, I said that the test lies, then he said I'm in denial, I said I'm not, geez, I don't have an eating disorder, I'm a fat disgusting piece of crap who eats like a pig!
I was so angry yesterday that I considered to take my life, I didn't, I just fell asleep from crying so much. I sorta cut myself for the first time in a few weeks, I managed to stop myself from going too far...
So now, I'm left with an urge to never eat again. I feel like punishing myself. I don't really want to eat. I feel sick more than anything. Lost all appetite I ever had. I don't really want to eat again, and I intend not to either.
It's just driving me insane! Usually when I get this stressed I rarely eat anyway, but I don't want to eat ever again. I mean, for now it's just... like, I don't eat much, maybe a meal or two, but it's just... I don't want to eat it, and I don't want to eat anymore, I just hate eating, and part of me wants to not eat for the control, because everything else is spiraling out of control that not eating makes me feel... I don't know, so much more in control of everything. It's not entirely about the fact of losing weight, that's just one reason outta so many others. People think it's just to lose weight, it's not...
I'm going to get kicked out of school.
My mum is ashamed of me because of my behaviour yesterday at school.
I mean, all that happened was I didn't go to any lessons due to a headache from hell. I may have been a tad disruptive and rude but hello, I should've been sent home! Not ignored and being spoken to like a piece of crap!
My sister hates me and is now officially ignoring me. When she speaks to me, it's usually something offensive.
I'm hated by every member of my family.
Me and my brother had an arguement a few days ago, he said that I have an eating disorder, I said I don't, he said I match the description of eating disorders too well, so I took an online test (we all know how they are like, lying piece of craps), and I scored high, my brother then said it's proof I have an eating disorder, I said that the test lies, then he said I'm in denial, I said I'm not, geez, I don't have an eating disorder, I'm a fat disgusting piece of crap who eats like a pig!
I was so angry yesterday that I considered to take my life, I didn't, I just fell asleep from crying so much. I sorta cut myself for the first time in a few weeks, I managed to stop myself from going too far...
So now, I'm left with an urge to never eat again. I feel like punishing myself. I don't really want to eat. I feel sick more than anything. Lost all appetite I ever had. I don't really want to eat again, and I intend not to either.