i wish i didn't have to hide, and that i could let it all out. when i was a little kid i told my mom i thought i was depressed and she snapped at me and said something along the lines of 'you have nothing to be depressed about'. well, i'm now 3-4 times as old as i was then and i still feel the same way. i wish i didn't have to hide my scars from her. if she'd just notice i wouldn't always be paranoid that she'll notice. recently she's been asking me what's wrong, but only when there's nothing wrong. i wish i wasn't alive. i don't want to kill myself but i wish i was never born.