grrr

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by missykate, Oct 2, 2006.

  1. missykate

    missykate Well-Known Member

    I am soooo agitated and on edge. I warn all to steer clear. I had to stand and listen to my dad yell at me for losing the phone. I didn't lose the phone and it comes with a page button. So instead of wasting time and energy just press the stupid button.

    Then my mom keeps asking me questions to which she already knows the answers to. I despise when people do that. After listening to my parents joke and be jolly with the other siblings that come for Sunday dinner and then having to see the different relationship we have made my mood an even darker shade of consuming blackness.

    Then because I am sooo smart I lash out verbally, to both of my parents. I just want to scream and rage and break things.

    I think this might have to do with the fact that I was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder and have yet to tell my parents. I don't want to tell them, that will just let them closer to me and I have no reason to believe it will be any different then before.

    I don't know what to think and I am not sure what I am feeling...I am just very very angry and wound tight like a spring, willing to be released. My parents always make things worse.
     
  2. Your parents treat you differently from your siblings?
     
  3. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    ditto...



    ...sorry.....



    Don't hesitate to PM me if you need me.

    :hug:


    xx,
    Carolyn
     
  4. missykate

    missykate Well-Known Member

    Yes, my parents treat me differently than my siblings. I am not sure if it is because of different personalities, relationship dynamics, or just lack of understanding and patience with each other.

    Trust me though...I give them a run for their money. But to know they gave up on me already, hurts.

    I have slept six hours of 96 hours. I just can't sleep. That probably isn't helping situations any...oh well. There is nothing I can do about that.
     
  5. Yeah, my parents treat me totally different from my sisters.