I fucked up.. AGAIN! I had a long long conversation with my husband on yahoo on Friday morning. It started at about 8am and went on until 2.30pm when I had to leave to go to work. All through the conversation I cried. All he would say is that he really loves me but doesn't want me. He talked about selling our home, that he should have all the monies as he's paid the mortgage. I have children to consider. I went to work and collapsed, I physically broke down. I was sent home. I didn't go into work today, I couldn't face anyone. I already called and said I won't be there on Monday. I love my husband with every inch of my life, why is he torturing me this way? Was it because I refused to have anal sex? Was it because I am so inhibited because I was sexually, physically and mentally tortured by my 1st husband? I do not understand What is wrong with me???????