So much pain.. My family is treating me like i'm two. They keep on making me feel so isolated.. Like such a failure. They criticize me no matter what i try to do.. They can't stop making me feel different. I'm apparently the only person in my entire genealogy with severe social issues. They don't even try to understand. I feel so damn trapped. I'm trying to appear optimistic. Really i feel like nothing i want can be obtained.. I'm stuck where i am, despite preferring death to it. Yet i can't even do that. I'm stressed out. Standard crap, work, money, loosing all contacts in my life, day by day. My deep fear of being alone, not wanting my life to go back to one of solitude, and isolation.. And these hyper-mood switches. I feel like i'm failing, with my most basic goals in life. And failing everyone i care about.