i started to cut about 5 years ago, but stopped after 2 years or so. and recently ive started again. and ive totally become addicted to it. but then i decided to try using an elastic band on my wrist, so i get pain from that without causing actual physical harm to myself. all is going well. i was using it and feeling fine. but as soon as one thing happens that sends my anxiety slightly higher, im wanting to cut again. and i cant get that thought off my mind until ive done it. grrr. i hate my mind.