Okay, so, things as they are: I dropped out of university, can't imagine getting back in, since I'd just fail out again. I have no job. I can not drive nor stand at this job due to epilepsy and severe plantar fasciitis and I am not qualified for basically anything else. I have no friends. I talk with several people online and that is it. I feel lousy most of the time, panic attacks are fairly often. I might be starving myself. I seem to be eating 1000 less calories per day than I should (but not losing weight somehow). Fuck it. I don't know where I'm going with this. Probably the same place I'm going with everywhere else - nowhere. I wish I had the guts to [METHODS] my [METHODS]. Edit: I'm also too sad to sleep.