I can't help but feel guilty. My mom's condition gets worse and worse every day and I can't bring myself to visit her. It's been years and I can't do it. It hurts far too much to see her like that. I hate myself for being selfish. I love her so much, and I know she loves me too... So why can't I do it? If I can ever get up enough courage to see her and tell her how much I care about her, I wonder if she could ever forgive me. I know I won't be able to.