I normally feel guilty for wanting to die. Yet the feelings have been getting far stronger lately. I have been drinking much more and taking painkillers alot. Yet then I just realised yesterday. I am a 41 year old lonely virgin.I have no friends and no life. Its perfectly normal to feel suicidal in this situation even inevitable.The whole of our modern culture ridicules virgins and hates them, and weirdos and loners for that matter too.Evolution at work again.There is no god as evolution proves time and time again so F**k him and any possible sin. My mental state also means that I am unemployed after being made redundant in the only job I have ever had for 20 years. Society also ridicules the unemployed as lazy scum.Meaning I also feel suicidal for that.Society doesn't want to help at all, in fact there is no help. Doctors are almost always shit. There is no where else to go either. Therefore society actually wants me to die.Its for the good of the many. Humanity is cruel and ruthless as is evolution. Some animals are often thrown out of a group to fend for themselves or die if there is something wrong with them. This is the same.The chaff must be eliminated. I am faulty because of my upbringing and therefore a liability to the human race. I therefore should not feel guilty for wanting to die but embrace it.Its a hard thing to do but maybe its perfectly natural.Its pure luck.