I have a lot of guilt here about my past however I won't elaborate, there are so many people that hate me it's almost surreal. If I was someone else I would probably hate myself as well. I know I'm a good person despite all of my mistakes. People are just people trying to get by. While reading the lucifer effect the other night Phillip zimbardo talks about how we like to think there is something in us that makes us good while in others there is something that makes them bad, however he states there isn't evidence to support this. Most of our actions are based on the situation and only knowing our own viewpoints. Many of us lack the imagination to put ourselves in someone else's shoes with experiences that are so much different then ours. It's almost surreal to think how one little different choice here or there could have altered things in the long run greatly. That reminds me of the movie the butterfly effect. Despite his good intentions going back to change things it never turns out good for him, so he goes back and scares his childhood best friend away and then the result is much better. As Jesus said when he died "father forgive them for they know not what they do".