So what do you do when you feel the vilest ever and you know there is NO ONE that can help you because they have told you you are beyond help. Well, you go to somewhere else that can't help, of course. So I'm very sorry for wasting your time on a person that is beyond help, I just sort of had a moment where I wanted to pretend that someone might be able to help me feel better, but I know you can't. So don't worry about replying, lol, I doubt anyone will even read this, because I know that no one gives a damn anyway, I just wanted to pretend for a few precious seconds before I go to bed. Have a good day/night.