Ha.

[cult logic]

You know, it's a funny thing when somebody thinks they're helping you.

How do they go about it? By destroying the only things I have as a distraction.

Ha.

There is really nothing else to do about my situation other than laugh.

I mean really, how low can you get?

How sad is it when you're absolutely ecstatic to find out a new medication can be lethal if done properly?

So damn pathetic. Even now, wallowing in my misery.

Right now the only reason I'm alive is because my mom keeps hiding it from me. :cry:

I found it yesterday but it was gone today so she must keep track of how many there are.

Sixteen and not even trusted with pills.

I was thinking I should probably wait until she goes out tomorrow and then search for them. The only problem is I don't know if I'd be dead before she got back.

I had to get that out, sorry for the waste if space. :dry:

 

[cult logic]

Fuck it, why even bother?

I know I'll end up doing it wrong and get thrown in the hospital.

Last thing I need right now.

I guess wrist slashing will have to be enough for tonight.

 

[yursomedicated]

Dude, the hosptial sucks. You don't want to go there if you don't need to. Don't cut, life is not worth it. I know that usually I want to too, but it really isn't worth it. You need to be on this earth. Someone NEEDS you. You are my age and that is way to young to die. I'm not too good at this advice stuff, I am usually getting it. But if you need someone to talk to, you can PM anytime.

 

[cult logic]

Oh, I know the hospital sucks. Like I said it's the very last thing I need right now.

I slashed my wrist last night. Bled everywhere but it wasn't deep enough to sever the artery. Not that I was trying to, that rarely works.

And then lucky me, family shows up today so my mom doesn't end up going out. Family that I hate on top of it.

I just don't win.

 

[MeAndYou]

You can PM me too if you need help or just want to vent about shit. Its true though. The hospital SUCKS! Pumping your stomach..UGH.

You can do permanent damage to your wrists if you continue slashing. Plus thats incredibly dangerous man. I think you should talk to someone close to you or your mom about the situation or events taht are depressing you instead of doing harm to yourself.

You should try going for a jog or playign guitar or writing...doing something you have control over and can have fun with/create. Even if its for 5 minutes a day just to get your mind off things (or on things..i for one try to continue thinking about things because i find the more i think about it the more rational i become but of course there are plenty of times i just want to forget about shit)

I dont know what other advice i can give you because you didnt list any issue specifically (not that you have to) but i hope you find some comfort.:smile:

 

[cult logic]

Honestly if it wasn't dangerous I probably wouldn't do it.

Anyway I've been feeling a bit better the past day and a half so I hope it keeps up.

 

[Acy]

Hiya, bcs. I hope the better mood continues. Thinking of you! :hug:

A.

 

[cult logic]

I just got some of the worst news of my life.

I'm not even upset. I don't know what to feel.

I don't fucking know anymore.