I kinda forced myself to have a decent day yesterday and now I feel like I'm crashing from that. I got myself up, did my makeup, and went for a long drive. Didn't go anywhere in particular, just needed to get out of my room. I even ate after like three days because I hadn't had the energy the past week. I started having issues with the whole missing my ex thing as I mentioned in a different thread a couple hours before I went to bed but shook it off the best I could and pushed it down. I went to bed around my usual time and woke up multiple times because I kept having nightmares and dreams involving my ex. I feel like every time I start to feel better about us not being together, he pops up and I have to start over. We haven't had a proper conversation in almost two weeks and I've been doing my best to remain no contact, but things like this don't help. I feel really out of it and sad today. Part of me wants him to message me but the other part of me wants him to stay away. I'm trying my best not to cry as I type this but it's been a long morning and I'm exhausted from the lack of sleep. I know everyone says time will heal everything but waiting is so hard.