Safety & Support
Really can't take this shit anymore. Suicidal for nearly two weeks with a plan in mind. No motivation. Anxiety through the roof. Uni work spiralling out of control. Today I finally motivate myself enough to do my assignment due in for Monday. I really have no motivation and it has been a struggle all day but I have managed 500 words. I was feeling pretty pleased with my progress for saying how hard it has been. Parents get home. Make out its been an issue that I have been doing my assignment all day just because there is fucking cat litter on the floor. Im lazy apparently noq. My fiance especially cleaned up for me today as he knew I was busy and they still make an issue. And now because I am upset and deflated I have been called a moody cow and having an attitude. I am fucking 20 for fucksake not 12!!!!! I feel like I shouldnt have bothered with my assignment. Like they would rather me fail and do fucking housework all day. It is so small and pointless but I am so pissed off and upset. I feel like it is the icing on the cake for me. Like my efforts at doing things mean nothing. I want out now. I have had enough. In the morning I will be gone.