Had enough

[VioletDawn]

I don't know how I'm not dead by now. I hope it's not much longer. I've had enough, enough, enough. I hope I can put myself out my misery really soon. I'm done feeling completely and utterly worthless. I'm done with never feeling good enough. I'm done with feeling wrong.

 

[Shadowlands]

Vi

 

[1964dodge]

I don't know how I'm not dead by now. I hope it's not much longer. I've had enough, enough, enough. I hope I can put myself out my misery really soon. I'm done feeling completely and utterly worthless. I'm done with never feeling good enough. I'm done with feeling wrong.

I was never one for notes, but if I was to leave one, it would simply say "Goodbye world, I won't miss you."

 

[So so tired]

I don't know how I'm not dead by now. I hope it's not much longer. I've had enough, enough, enough. I hope I can put myself out my misery really soon. I'm done feeling completely and utterly worthless. I'm done with never feeling good enough. I'm done with feeling wrong.

 

[VioletDawn]

I know I'm a horrible stupid broken record but the days are impossible now. I can't do this day after day. I can't be this ugly, flawed, grotesque soul. I'm in so much pain like I can't put into words. I feel like I'm climbing the walls of my mind with my bare fingernails.

Every time I look within, I hate what I see with every ragged fibre of my being. I want to scream at myself. I want to shout I hate you (me) with as much vitriol and venom that I never thought possible.

I hate, hate, hate, hate, hate this thing that I became. I don't even feel human anymore. I feel less than the lowest layer of slime that crawled out the ocean. I'm really screwed up. Really, really screwed up.

 

[Were all together]

You're not worthless, you're not wrong, you're not ugly, flawed or grotesque. You're my friend. And, you're none of those too me. 🤗

 

[VioletDawn]

I'm beyond help. I'm just beyond help. Nobody can help me now.

 

[may71]

I know I'm a horrible stupid broken record but the days are impossible now

It's ok to keep saying what's wrong. There's nothing wrong with that. If it helps, please say whatever helps.

You've endured some really horrible, unfair things in your life. Please be gentle with yourself. All the hatred that you've directed toward yourself doesn't seem fair.