Had enough

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by IntoTheWoods, Oct 13, 2011.

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  1. IntoTheWoods

    IntoTheWoods Guest

    I try so hard to keep picking myself up, but then I keep getting knocked back - I can't stand it, I want it to stop.
     
  2. BeautifullyChaotic

    BeautifullyChaotic Well-Known Member

    Hello my dear friend, I know how you feel and I'm here for you, if you need a chat I'm online right now :) so feel free to vent away.
    You can IM my yahoo if you want... beautiful.chaos83@yahoo.com it can receive IMs from almost any other IM server such as msn, aim and the like.
     
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I know hun sometimes the fight seems to get the best of us but you are a fighter okay so you keep getting back up learn some new coping skills new tactics so to speak to fight the battle okay Hugs to you
     
  4. Severijn

    Severijn Well-Known Member

    I like that quote that basically goes like this:

    "Keep swinging the bat; at some point you will hit a ball; you might miss many, but at some point you'll hit a homerun."

    I like that metaphor for life. Please keep trying, and if you need to talk this is the place. Take care.
     
  5. IntoTheWoods

    IntoTheWoods Guest

    I so don't want to be on here right now - yesterday I thought that I didn't fit here and I was feeling worse coming here and feeling like some out of place thing - so decided to go on my merry way and get through life without posting on here - thought it may help me be less avoidant with my T - then today I get a phone call from my mother saying they think my dad has cancer. Yes that is sad for anyone to hear isn't it - but right now it feels like my dad has gone and done it again - just when I try to sort myself out with my T and stop putting everyone else first and try to learn to focus on my needs and boundaries - there he goes and gets f'in cancer and I am supposed to act like the sad upset daughter with love and warmth in my heart and I feel absolutely nothing - well no that's not right - I have this overwhelming guilt - how dare I even consider myself when my poor father probably has some terminal illness - if I can't find that love in my heart for him before he dies - where does that leave me? But he has no idea how I have struggled over the last 2 years to fight beating him to the grave - I hate him for how he treated me as a child and now I see this frail man who needs love and I just can't fucking find it!! I just don't get why my life is such an upward struggle - well no not upward, feels downward actually. I even hate writing this on here - but I'm not sure what else to do.
     
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